“The ship named ‘Solstice’ embarked from Seattle, and as we headed toward Alaska I felt a sense that (like this ship) my life was about to head in a brand new direction.”
My week-long trip to Alaska turned out to be one of the most life-changing and soul-awakening moments that I had experienced up to that point. Deeply and spiritually fulfilling, it was a moment where I truly felt as though I had found my calling for the rest of my life.
Before getting into my experience, I’d like to quickly explain who Esther and Abraham are. Esther is a woman who channels information from a group of non-physical entities who has named themselves “Abraham”. What happens is that she goes into a very relaxed state (a trance), and allows these guides to use her body and voice to speak to the world. Abraham writes books and does workshops in which they have people come up and ask their questions in the “hot-seat”. I had been listening to their teachings for about a year and a half before I had the opportunity to see them in person. This Abraham Hicks cruise in July of 2017 was my first trip far enough from home to require an airplane, and was also my first big trip taken alone.
The ship named “Solstice” embarked from Seattle, and as we headed toward Alaska I felt a sense that (like this ship) my life was about to head in a brand new direction. On the first night of sailing, I had missed the very first Abraham seminar because I wasn’t aware that there was one– I didn’t find out that I had missed it until meeting a woman later in the evening who asked me what I thought of it. Although I initially felt disappointed, I also had a sense that missing the seminar had a deeper purpose, and it did.
The next morning I woke up to a memory of the dream I had about Esther the night before. I explained it to my cabin roommate: I dreamed that Esther and her husband Jerry were moving into my home as I was moving out of it; an orchestration created by the universe to bring us onto each others’ paths.
When I had alone time before the seminar, as I was getting ready I was suddenly hit by a wave of emotions so intense that tears started to flow from my eyes. Music seemed sweeter and I felt a deep sense of oneness, openness, and love. These were not tears of sadness, but more like a physical expression of feeling so much appreciation and understanding being flowed to me and through me. It felt like they (these non-physical beings) were saying to me, “All of the things that have happened in your life were for the purpose of bringing you right here to this very moment, and welcome to the next beautiful part of your life.” Looking back I believe this was an intuition of the coming experience I was about to have at the seminar.
“It was so overwhelming that I felt as though I wanted to peel my physical body off, so that I could fully experience the complete expansiveness of that love. “
Before leaving the cabin, I grabbed some tissues since I had a feeling I’d be crying, and then proceeded to the hall where everyone was going to gather. I began to cry before the workshop started and as her signature song “Joy is the Key” started playing I began sobbing because I felt an immense loving and understanding begin to fill the room. When she walked out, I started to uncontrollably cry because I had never felt so much pure and unconditional love penetrating through me. My body felt like a blockage to experiencing the full amount of love and joy that I could be experiencing. It was so overwhelming that I felt as though I wanted to peel my physical body off, so that I could fully experience the complete expansiveness of that love. The best way I can describe it, is that it was like my body was a battery that had too much energy trying to flow through it that it was on the verge of exploding. When she walked out I lost control of my body and felt like I couldn’t move, like being paralyzed.
In my head I was telling my spirit guides “I want to stand!”
Immediately I heard them (in my head) excitedly respond, “She is not any more special than you, we are just as excited to see you here! You don’t need to stand!” Instead, I heaved my upper body over and bowed in my seat.
Abraham then picked someone that was sitting behind me, to come up to the hot-seat and began to answer her question. I couldn’t understand what they were saying. They were speaking English, but it was like I had completely forgotten language and was just perceiving the meaning behind the words. I think what was happening was that my awareness became much more expansive and less specific in physical time/space. It wasn’t until I relaxed into the moment and really tried to focus more specifically, that I was able to understand the words. Each time that I was able to focus in, Esther’s voice would get much higher and excited. This to me, was confirmation that she was actually channeling information.
I cried for the remainder of this whole workshop (2 hours). Time however, felt timeless. We were there for two hours, but to me it felt like no time. It was like a surrender to the moment, where I was completely just experiencing and fully being in every second.
While we were on a fifteen minute break, the woman sitting next to me commented, “Wow you must be so grateful to be here.”
“I’ve never felt anything like it, that’s not human,” I exclaimed through tears. I meant that I knew for sure that this was an entity that was not Esther’s human consciousness because it felt so lovingly powerful and pure. It felt like non-physical.
I walked out of that first seminar feeling so incredibly fulfilled and open that I walked over to a view of the ocean to sit by myself and watched the water going by for hours, with no sense of boredom–just complete bliss. I had no sense of time, it was just presence. I was in a clear space of pure joy and wanted to savor each moment of it for as long as I possibly could. I believe that an immense shift had happened in my life/awareness. This was only day two of the cruise, and the rest of the journey would prove to be just as beautiful as this beginning.
Meeting Esther Hicks
The days leading up to meeting Esther were full of moments of discovery, new like-minded friends, and beautiful scenery. I had fully enjoyed the journey, and each moment that it had to offer to me.
Throughout the whole cruise I had been writing about my experiences in a journal that all seminar participants had received as a gift from Abraham-Hicks Publications. After the second to last workshop of the cruise, I had the idea to give the journal to her travel team so that they could give it to Esther. That way she would know how much I had enjoyed my time and how grateful I was that she does what she does.
Before walking up to them, I began to talk myself into taking that action. I told myself that,”If I don’t do it now, I’ll never know what could have come from it.” In a leap of faith, I jumped.
I walked up to the workshop team and said, “Can you please give this to Esther to read?”
Her daughter Tracy replied, “Yes, is your name in it?” It wasn’t, so I wrote it in there and went on my way– my heart felt like it wanted to run away from me as I left the journal with her.
The next morning I had an excursion planned to leave the ship, to go into Canada and see the Butchart Gardens/Craigdarroch castle. While walking down the garden paths of Butchart Gardens, I wanted to take my time to appreciate the scenery and to take photos of it, but I felt a really strong pulling to keep walking. It was more like wanting to run down this specific path, that’s how strong this pulling felt– almost an uncomfortable feeling to try fighting it.
While walking towards this path that was pulling to me, I ran into a man that I had met at dinner the night before and stopped him to say, “Hello!”
His lips pulled upward into a grin as he exclaimed, “Esther is over there!”
Without telling him goodbye, my legs moved faster than my mind could talk me out of going, and I swiftly walked over to her. She was surrounded by a big group of people (her family and travel team). I was so excited that I shouted out the first words that my mind could think of.
I yelled “Esther!” and as she walked over to me I smiled and said, “You have my book.” She tilted her head with a curious look, so I clarified, “My journal.”
When she realized what I meant, she said compassionately, “Oh I didn’t read it yet.”
At that point I hadn’t felt disappointed because I knew she must have been too busy to read it or just wanted to enjoy the rest of her trip.
I understood and told her, “Oh its okay!” Then stood there for a moment. I looked around and it sunk in that everyone was staring at me and my stomach dropped. Fear set in because I didn’t know what to do next.
“Do you want it back?” she asked me playfully.
“This next experience was so profound and otherworldly, that it’s like trying to describe what it means to love–I don’t think words can do it justice.”
It’s not possible to describe the feeling of love accurately enough to truly encompass what it feels like to be deeply in the experience of it. This next experience was so profound and otherworldly, that it’s like trying to describe what it means to love–I don’t think words can do it justice.
It felt like my head opened, and like warm water was being slowly poured throughout my whole body, into every cell. It entered through my head and trickled down to my feet. It felt like a really massive, powerful, and loving energy entering my body. My focus seemed to be really pointed, like the whole world around me disappeared and it was just me and her.
As I looked up at her and into her eyes, I saw little specks of light flying around everywhere. Then my hands lifted up and made a really big gesture to her to then say the words, “No, no, no, I want you to read it!” But these words did not feel like they were coming from me, they felt like words coming from my spirit guides. My voice and body were moving in ways that I don’t particularly use them. The fluctuations in my voice were of a much higher pitch, it felt like the words were being pushed out, and I was speaking much louder than I normally do. It felt like I became love, and like information was flooding it’s way into my head so that I had a deep sense of understanding. In my mind I was seeing her reading my journal and was being told, “She’s going to love this part, and this part!” It felt like a really excited and all knowing being who knew what was coming next in all of our lives. I’ve never experienced my mind moving so quickly, or receiving information in such a powerful way.
I felt complete, and like that was all I needed. So my lips began moving and this being said to Esther, “But it was very nice to meet you.”
Then my body turned around and I walked away swiftly after she giggled and said, “It was nice to meet you too!”
For a few hours afterwards there was an enormous buzzing or electric sensation moving through my body, I felt almost disoriented. It was like I had just been shocked by electricity and my body was feeling the after effects of it. To this day I’m not exactly positive of what happened in that moment. I believe that it was me channeling my own group of non-physical beings.
This cruise, with all of it’s beautiful experiences has created lasting impressions on my every day life. It was like a mini journey, symbolic for the journey of life. A journey that can only be taken alone, and one in which you meet the people you’re meant to meet along the way. I believe that that’s the way life is supposed to be/feel. Fully enjoying every single moment, being present in that moment, sucking the joy and the love out of it, and then letting it go once its done. Then moving forward, moment by moment into whichever path feels like its pulling you so hard that you can’t fight with it, and you must go with it.
© 2019 Alexis Gonzalez